So many many thoughts running through my mind...



I don't know which choice to make........



In any way it will affect me...



Yes?????????




No?????????





Somehow I feel that my decision doesn't affect me only.... I have to think about my family as well...






That's the reason why I'm hesitating...




God tell me the answer will ya? It's so difficult... I feel so dumb!! Now I'm stuck and lost... In the middle of nowhere....








My uniform is still hanging at the same old place. Its been months since i last wore it...





My luggage and mamasan bag has dust on it.. . As it stands at the corner of my house..


My make up and hair spray is untouch as well.. Everything is left there..


So many things I want to do... I'm unsure if I can make things right this time round.^




Should I give myself another chance?







I hate to make such major decision.!!!! If only I could turn back time.. To prevent that bloody cart from hitting me...! Then, I will not have to be in distress...







Everything starts with IF




Somebody save me please~~









I'm a pampered gal... Since young I was given the best, that my parents, aunt and uncles could afford...


Since young, I was taught to be well-mannered and to have good etiquette. I was brought to restaurant at least once every 2months, staying at hotels yearly... Getting 'branded stuffs' and expensive presents...



I'm someone who has gone through a wonderful childhood... I know how to carry myself at all occasions, having good etiquette and being well-mannered... All thanks to my aunt, uncle and parents who taught me so well...


Dinning in at restaurants more often then at hawker center, getting expensive stuff; results are--> me wanting to improve on my life.. Wanting to lead a better life... Aiming for things so that I could work for it... I don't wait for things to drop down from the skies... =X




And so I really wish to provide my grandma, uncle, aunt & parents a wonderful life... They ain't getting any younger... They took great care of me when I was young. So I wanna give them the best too! And with this job, I can support them financially...