Its a public holiday today... Tomorrow will be Li Ying's 21st Birthday!


I have yet to buy any presents for her... Not that I'm lazy.. Its just that I got no idea... I love birthday & christmas... But somehow i don't look forward to X'mas and birthdays...



If God could really just grant me one wish.. Which is impossible... I'll wish for being able to fly once again...



Its been quite some time that I'm out of job... I dont feel like working anymore... Not for the time being... Money is running out real fast & dry...






The sore part is being covered so well.. Did a real job... Of course I'll be emo once in awhile... It cant be help..




Everything boils down... Sets me pondering~ This fall is too bad, so hard to pick myself up.. I don't see myself working hard at all... Yes! I wanna destroy myself...






Every single one of you claim to understand how i feel... But do you seriously understand at all?





To Baby:

IF you really think that by destroying yourself before me works.. Sorry no it don't... Nothing really affects me... I won't stop smoking... Yes I'm running away... At least it makes me much better...






~ I really wish i could just die........