Miss misses.. Reminiscing so many things that has to do with flying... Fretting over rosters, whether the crew will be nice, whether I can do my best, thinking if I'll enjoy the layover...


I still can remember pre-flights, on flight, touching down and getting home moments...



The anticipation before flights... It can be kinda sucky...



If the load and pax profile is good and the set of crew is nice... Thank God.. If its not... Put on a 'mask' and survive till the end of flight...





All these just keeps running thru my mind... Many a times, I ponder.. If I really continue flying, will my back be alright? Maybe for now yes, in future I'll suffer more backache...



In that kind of situation how will you really decide? Did i really make the right choice in leaving... Because I'm feeling sad... A dream realised yet so short for me to enjoy... Thanks for putting me thru the test.. The heartache and stuff...



God why are you SO unfair to me!





Didn't you see the effort that I had put in? The trips down to the hotel (interview venue), the hours of waiting for my turn to be interview on a empty stomach, telling myself that I'll do better for the next interview, doing my best while training, handle my emotions while being humiliated, improve on my HR skills, learning how to doll myself up, self-discipline in ensuring that I get up on time to prepare for flights, in having sufficent rest.l.. So many many things...



It's not that I did't put in effort..





Why me?