Why did God take my chance away... Why me? Life is really so unfair...







Why put me thru such agony...






Everything is still fresh in my mind... I dont want to let go.......









Its painful for me to try to accept... That I'm no longer a crew.....





I fear and dislike meeting up with old friends.. Because the topics dicuss will be what i hate to hear and talk about...






Finally.. I broke down... Its really not easy!










I have to go on... To put on brave front while I'm at home.. . Everyone is keeping quiet... Because the hurt is too deep....


I don't know how long it will take to heal... I really wished that I didnt have to go thru this...




What i know is no matter what i do, it's fixed... Whether i like it or not... God just forced me to 'accept' it...




I read thru Shandy's blog... Chloe, Jane, Nicole and Lindy's blogs... I really envy them... And it's hurtful... It pierces my heart...





I'm suppose to be happy... Cause its the end of our probation... No longer our's - its Batch 944's probation... To be exact- it has nothing to do with me anymore...