Bad bad news... My smallest aunt is hospitalize... The rest of the family will be going to China... So my 2nd aunt and I will have to take turns to take care for smallest aunt.. No complains though...!


I cried again two days ago.. The tears just rolled down and it continued for awhile...


I know its stupid of me to just say and not do... Actions speaks louder than words..


But its really so hard to pick myself up.. To others, its frustrating cause I've been dangling on the string for months...



I smile more often, enjoy going out with friends now... I learn to pour my sorrows out alittle more.. Learn to control my mindset...


Back then I couldn't even smile.. I shut myself from everyone of them... I keep everything to myself... I think alot... I drink to drown my sorrows...


So tell me is it fair to say that I have not put in any effort at all? And who are you to judge?!





Anyway only the person involve will know.. The struggles and pains, the emotional roller coaster rides... I agree I think too much... Hey~ I'm not Iron Woman or someone without emotions...


Batch gals say I'm strong... Very strong.. Faced with the same problems that I have... They will be lost...


I know I'm strong and independent.. But at times I need to take a break...



Turn the clock back, I'll not choose this path.. Till now, it's my BIGGEST regret...



I'm really scared of seeing familiar faces... I shun away because the questions asked will always be the same...


- Fly to which countries le?
- SO good to travel around...
- Today never fly?
- GOing to which country for your next flight?