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12:04 AM
Not feeling real good these days as in emotionally... The problem with me - always keeping way too much things to myself... I know that this aint very healthy.. I wish that I can pour out everything, to make myself feel better.. At least there will be someone to talk to and to be my listening ear..
I wish that I can get myself out from this turmoil.. The mess that took the old happy Sher... I miss being the old me.. Laughing at nonsenses, being really happy... Not that I'm unhappy now..
I'm thankful that my relationship with mummy is better, happy to be taken care and loved by Baby, glad that I still have some of my friends... For those that I lost, I'm sure that in a way or another maybe one day we will be able to 'revert' to the good old times again..
Perhaps only my ah ma realize or manage to feel that something seems to be troubling me.. Though she hardly bring it up.. Whenever she does.. She always ask me what's wrong why do I look sad and troubled? Behind the 'happy' me which I always portray...
I can't make you understand how I really feel... Because every human is made differently.. We all have our differences and strengths, different personality.. No man is ever the same...
Give me more time... More time to sort out my thinking... I will get my drive back...
Baby who is always ever ready to listen to my rantings and to provide the comfort hug... You're really wonderful.. I know that someone will be behind me, providing moral support...
God heard my prayers... And it was amazing how God stopped me from being kept in suspense..
Change of wardrobe
