the only constant is change.

At this point of time... I'm asking myself what do I really want?

The ideal lifestyle that I want to lead..To live in comfort? The ability to spend without having to worry about money... Financial stability... To have a family of my own? I imagine having a nearly 'perfect' family... But many of these projected images freaks me out... I realize that I'm not that ready - not prepared giving birth & raising kids, under house arrest bogged with the endless commitment....

Ironic...

People of my age, friends, classmates- they are getting engaged/married... I feel the happiness when I see the pictures of these happy moments.. But I'm so not looking forward to such a thing for the next 2-3years... Maybe I'm not the kind of girl who can withstand those long term relationships which can be a little draggy or messy should anything happen..

I'm happy with my status now.. Because I'm not married, there isn't any need to answer to parent-in-law & husband... Call me selfish?

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Everyone deserves a chance in making their own choice... Rightfully something that makes them happy... That's what I believe...